my habit. this is my survival. this is how i became the best possible mother i could be to my own children. everything that i witnessed through out my entire life from my great grandmother, grandmother, and mother was twisted, evil, controlling, pure nastiness. each and every one of these women treated their own daughters with horrible hate. narcissistic mothers destroy their own families. i walked away. i am the black sheep. i am recovering. no contact. love those who love you.