You knew I was in love with you for a very long time and I meant everything I had told you. When we made all those plans for you, and me.. I believed that we were making plans for our future as a family. I don't understand why you decided to believe the lies of another.
“If there is a soul, it is a mistake to believe that it is given to us fully created. It is created here, throughout a whole life. And living is nothing else but that long and painful bringing forth.” — Albert Camus
I love Ricky...a bit too snarky for me sometimes, because I think people should believe in a god if that's what they need to believe in, but I've thought this very same thing all throughout my adult life.